What if

I once asked "Have you ever?" Now I ask "What If?"

What if you aren't the good guy?

What if you're really the thing that you hate most?

What if you're wrong about everything you thought was right?

What if you never did what you thought was right?

What if you decided to turn away?

What if you walked away from everything?

What if you were right about everything that you thought was wrong but for the wrong reasons?

What if you're best isn't good enough?

What if there is nobody around to hear you cry?

What if everything was a lie?

What if it's all just a dream?

What it it's all just a nightmare?

What if you could see the universe in a blade of grass?

What if it all came to end this very second?

What if you never existed at all?

Changes

I've thoughts in my head

That I shouldn't be thinking

I wish I was dead

Instead I lie in bed drinking

I can't describe the pain I feel

And my heart, it is sinking

Just what have I gotten myself into this time?

Oh what have I gotten myself into this time 

And what's funny is that everyone thinks that I'm fine

The lies that I've heard

They've sure kept me laughing

The world all around me

It seems to be crashing

And the way you ignore me

It's like you've no idea what's happening

Am I blind? 

Was it me?

Was I too oblivious to see

The changes happening to you

And what you're doing to me?