Changes

I've thoughts in my head

That I shouldn't be thinking

I wish I was dead

Instead I lie in bed drinking

I can't describe the pain I feel

And my heart, it is sinking

Just what have I gotten myself into this time?

Oh what have I gotten myself into this time 

And what's funny is that everyone thinks that I'm fine

The lies that I've heard

They've sure kept me laughing

The world all around me

It seems to be crashing

And the way you ignore me

It's like you've no idea what's happening

Am I blind? 

Was it me?

Was I too oblivious to see

The changes happening to you

And what you're doing to me?